Assalamualaikum...
Hmm...
These days, weather n climate seem hate me much. they make me sick! Everyday i get up with something disturbing in my nose. Fortunately, it just happen in the morning. So guys, keep your body!
Now, i want to tell u a story from my friend. Yup...she is my best friend. I have asked her to let me tell u her name,but she didn't want to. Therefore, i wouldn't tell u her name and i have promised. i tell u this story just for my hobby and maybe some of u can take something inside of it or just give suggestion or solution for my friend.
hmm..from where should i start??
ok, it was about her feeling of missing someone. she said to me that she regret it. hearing that, i didn't know what she was talking about. i didn't know what the word "it" meant. what did she regret? i tried to make her comfortable with herself n made her tell what actually she wanted to say.then..she began to talk...
bf: "i feel so lonely now. i think i was too tough with him. and now, i regret myself n if i could turn back the time where i've done that thing which make me like this..i wouldn't have done that kind of thing!"
me: "hey, hey, what is "that kind of thing" ?"
bf: "it's a long story...i think i can't tell u.."
me: "no, you really need to tell me"
bf: "okay, actually i knew him since first semester. i knew him on a chatting site. but actually i didn't really remember if that was right"
me: "so, u mean that u didn't quite remember if u met him on that chatting site?"
bf: "i never met him! ya..but he told me that i gave him my phone number. and i felt maybe he was right n honest because i actually have given my phone number to someone. then, when i was not using or chatting on that chatting site, someone call me. and that was the beginning"
me: "ok, i'm listening..go ahead!"
bf: "it's him. at first, with my anger inside of my mind, i refused to talk with him. i think that he was just disturbing people who wanted to know me. but his speech was not the same as what i have thought. he just wanted to know if i was the one who ever had a chat with him. and i said my name. and he said "okay" and "thank you for answering the call" and he said greeting, i replied. and the conversation was off"
me: "then?"
bf: "since that time, i became not-so-skeptic with that man. i became accustomed to talk with him. i didn't feel negative aura in my ears. i enjoyed it instead. we keep text-ing and calling"
me: "so...how long did you..."
bf: "until this year..it almost two year. the last SMS was on March"
me: "wow...how could u..?"
bf: " that's why...that was why i made a mistake"
me: " then, tell me more"
bf: "he gave me his picture from friendster..gave me his email and told me much about him"
me: "i know ur problem. u really want to ensure that he was real.."
bf: "that's true...and i liked him..and i want to meet him. but my chance was gone...no other one"
bf: "time by time passed and suddenly i felt that he was near me. because he told something that was the same activity i did somewhere. i thought that he was following me. but i kept reminding myself that he was far far away. my patience was a half when it was almost a year i have a relationship with him. i've already said that i liked him. and once again..i'm eager to meet him"
me:" and he couldn't make it?"
bf: "yup..but i forgave him"
me: "and u started to think that he might be ur colleague?"
bf: "i thought about it..i thought that maybe he was the one i admire of in the college. and i have admired him long time before the chatting man"
me: " oh my..."
bf: "and on March..this year...i've done something bad....i forced him to meet me. and if he didn't want to...i would stop knowing him at all"
me: " and he still couldn't make it?"
bf:" yup...i've blocked him from my Facebook..and also blocked the admired-colleague too?"
me: "what's wrong with that man?? u just acted arrogantly"
bf: "cuz..i've told u that the chat-man might be the same as the colleague"
me: "what makes u conclude?"
bf: "cuz he ever said that he wanted me to go to campus. and i asked him why and "it seems that u wait me in the campus" and he answered " yes..." it was SHOCKING for me"
me: "and ur curiosity was not answered till now.."
bf: " it makes me depressed...so hard..so much..and it led to this..i lost him..n i missed him..."
at that time..my bestfriend started to cry...
me: "well, if i ask u now..would u answer it honestly?"
bf: " i would.."
me: "if he is not the admired-colleague, will u still liked him?"
bf: "that's why...i want to give my faith to one man...and if he is real...no doubt, i give him all...cuz he(the chat-man) was the one who always with me"
me: "really...?"
bf: "ya."
alright...it's a lil' bit confusing for me...
that's the story....
hooooammmm...i feel sleepy nnnoooow...since it almost 1:30 a.m.
i must sleep..
c ya!